Thursday, April 25, 2013

And The Fingers Are Knotting Again

After more than two months of grieving my beloved pooch, I've started to come up for air.  I had just begun to feel more myself after my thyroid surgery in November 2012, and my Bear had been fine, until one day in January, he wasn't.  It was a very difficult month of caring for him and facing the prospect of life without him, and once the shock of his leaving us wore off, the exhaustion set in and the grieving began.  I could feel the beauty in the excruciating pain of this grief, knowing it was born out of a tremendous love.  I was careful with myself and allowed myself to feel and move through it as best I could.

I was so very blessed to have had this amazing creature in my life for nearly 15 years.  I can't begin to describe this gratitude.

And so it happened as I thought it might... I woke up one morning and wanted to make a mala.  My dear friend Joseph Anthony (find him here on Twitter, and watch his beautiful kirtan videos, so full of devotion) had requested two custom malas.  He was so blessedly patient and supportive as I went through this process of grieving and healing.  And then, one day, I felt ready to create and this is what came into being. 

108 Bead Picture Jasper & Jade/Fuschite

27 Bead Tiger's Eye
It felt so wonderful to be knotting and creating again.  I have two more custom orders and then I hope to be filling up my Etsy shop once again.  It has been a long time coming.  Thank you all for your patience, love and support.

Rest in Peace my angel

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Witness Is the Door


Inner & Outer Consciousness: Witness is the door to create a shift from reaction to response


by Gurudev

It is important to pay attention to what you are doing and where you are going in order to get what you want and arrive at your desired destination. But to get to the Source within, you have to be in response to the present to stay connected to your Being.

If your attention is heavily consumed by the insecurity or fear, your future will captivate your attention. Your concerns for the future will be more important than the step you are taking now. As long as you are being in polarity, you are in response. Witness is the door to create the shift from reaction to response.

What you want in future represents the outer, external dimension. But, how you do what you do to get there is the inner dimension. The outer dimension is the journey in the dimension of time and space. Inner dimension stays connected to the Being Presence that we are.

Outer dimension we deal with is the material, physical as well as mental forms. But, behind all the forms there is harmonious interplay of consciousness and energy. Only in human beings there is an individual "I AM" and ego-mind that has the freedom to induce personal thought forms for or against omnipresent Presence of "prana Being" or life force energy and consciousness.

The choice breaks the omnipresent Presence of prana-Beings or subconscious life force and super conscious beings that we are. We are "I AM THAT I AM", but through identification with thought forms we separate from the omnipresent Presence of polarity and live in perpetual conflict with omnipresent Presence that we are.

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Loving Fearlessly

There is something so beautiful in the indescribable pain of losing one you loved so deeply. That tremendous pain reveals to you the glorious depth of that love, which was fearless of the sorrow that would come when it came time to part.

Rest in Peace, my beautiful boy.

Bear
May 12, 1998 - February 13, 2013