Thursday, April 25, 2013

And The Fingers Are Knotting Again

After more than two months of grieving my beloved pooch, I've started to come up for air.  I had just begun to feel more myself after my thyroid surgery in November 2012, and my Bear had been fine, until one day in January, he wasn't.  It was a very difficult month of caring for him and facing the prospect of life without him, and once the shock of his leaving us wore off, the exhaustion set in and the grieving began.  I could feel the beauty in the excruciating pain of this grief, knowing it was born out of a tremendous love.  I was careful with myself and allowed myself to feel and move through it as best I could.

I was so very blessed to have had this amazing creature in my life for nearly 15 years.  I can't begin to describe this gratitude.

And so it happened as I thought it might... I woke up one morning and wanted to make a mala.  My dear friend Joseph Anthony (find him here on Twitter, and watch his beautiful kirtan videos, so full of devotion) had requested two custom malas.  He was so blessedly patient and supportive as I went through this process of grieving and healing.  And then, one day, I felt ready to create and this is what came into being. 

108 Bead Picture Jasper & Jade/Fuschite

27 Bead Tiger's Eye
It felt so wonderful to be knotting and creating again.  I have two more custom orders and then I hope to be filling up my Etsy shop once again.  It has been a long time coming.  Thank you all for your patience, love and support.

Rest in Peace my angel
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3 comments:

Joseph Anthony said...

Thank you Kajal for sharing this lovely post, and for the kind mention. I love being a part of the healing. I love that you honored yourself enough to grieve, to take the time to be with your feelings. The image of the beads rivering through your fingers as a part of your healing brings me great joy. All the devotion you have woven into these malas, all of the tears for your beloved Pooch that you strung into them, every note you sang that you knotted into them are all infused into their beauty. So thank you for choosing to make them, for your thoughtful care and guidance in picking the colors and the stones, the styles and the sizes--you were patient with me as well. I love having a pocket mala and one full mala. They are coming at the perfect time. My own devotions have been calling your malas since we met on Twitter, and they are much needed right now. I am so looking forward to making them a part of my longing, my gratitude, my kirtans, my praise, my hopes and dreams, my meditations on the Heart of Hearts. Blessings on your continued healing and your journey with grief. Blessings on your journey into making more malas. I wish you all joy and success, happiness and prosperity--in all ways. Peace and Light, Joseph

April 25, 2013 at 8:14 PM
Meredith LeBlanc said...

Beautiful malas born from a beautiful soul, enriched by Bear's love. Hari OM Tat Sat

♥♥♥
Meredith

April 26, 2013 at 9:54 PM
Kajal said...

Thank you Joseph and Meredith for these beautiful words, they mean the world to me. love, kajal

April 27, 2013 at 12:57 PM

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